Intro : [AMillz]
Yeah
Fuck love
Fuck love
Fuck love
Fuck love
Verse 1 : [AMillz]
Fuck love if it never lasts
Only one I’ve ever loved yeah it was my last
So far that was the peak of my past
Now I’m drinkin till I collapse
Might just relapse, think bout this past
When you lapping me how can I even pass
Throw me the blunt I’ll pass on the pass
Mary Julie Nikki dead presidents all I have
I’m goin through this weekly destructive path
Where all I care about is countin stacks doin the math
I’m losing my mind like a fucking psychopath
Always looking for the love that I once had
I love loving the lover but through the post trauma I suffer
The key to my life but you never hit the buffer
Polished you perfect even under makeups cover
Thinking back to all the times when I was so suborn
Your my sunshine didn’t care about your sunburn
You even in my dreams but I don’t toss and turn
Trying to changed, when will I learn
Thoughts don’t mean a thing unless you put em into words
I say this and its been a year and i'm still hurt
The person i looked forward to like dessert
Then you turn it around now and my mind is on alert
Still always wondering did i deserve
All that pain
All that sadness
I didn’t volunteer
Gettin treated like Katniss
All that shame
I thought i had this
Been over a year and i still can't get passed it
When the one you love says your love is bullshit
That’s when you really just start to go through shit
Ask myself why did I do this how could I do this
Hurting the one you love why would you do it
(Why would you do it)
Love is the pain that drives all my struggle
Love is the drug I got caught trying to smuggle
What’s the game plan when you stressed in the huddle
You runnin outta time like you just missed the shuttle
Fuck love there’s only one kind for me
But I missed the wave I already sailed at sea
Don’t y’all see, it’s my myself and I
See my future together eye to my eye
With me till I die, float to the sky
Never leave myself never ask why
Man fuck love cuz I just wanna die
Man fuck love cuz I just wanna die
Now we thinking suicide
Now we thinking suicide
Pre-Verse : [AMillz]
Time to get up soldier its another day at war
My heart loads a magazine what's it fightin for
These demons flood in they knock down the door
Ran outta ammo Adam what you cryin for
Verse 2 : [AMillz]
I'm hurt i'm bruised everyone thinks i cruise
Your not even close till i tell you the news
I don't get why you think my life is that great
When i don't wanna be stuck in the fuckin state
Of mind that i'm in and what i've been
I wanna be happy i want to be stable
I want a fucking career where i feel able
To turn dreams to a reality
Have my mom smile at me
Have my mom say shes really fuckin proud of me
Maybe one day i can turn things around
But lately no doors open the room fills with clowns
And tigers then they pounce
Druggys just want an ounce
I'm sitting here and i just wanna bounce
I just wanna bounce
Fuck
I'm spraying these lines
One at a time
I'm hurting when i'm spilling these rhymes
I'm hurting that this music only makes dimes
I need dollars to survive
I want a happy life where i don't stress all the time
But stress is the only friend that's always by my side
24/7 just take me to heaven
On my death bed someone callin a reverend
Those lasts text i send it
The death note amend it
Sign it goodbye with a title fuck love
Time to say hello to the man up above
Or would he send me down for just giving up
I scream my body shoots right up
Nightmares in my mind, i call her suicide
I wonder who am i
Do i wanna die
Man fuck love why do i even try
Call me fuckin Billie if i'm the bad guy
Outro : [AMillz]
Fuck love
Fuck love