Cross to Bear Lyrics[Verse 1]
Allow no joy
'Cause I am only me when I bereave
All my warmth pushed below the surface
Allow no joy
No exhilaration
I do not feel like me anymore
[Chorus]
You are my cross to bear (Cross to bear)
Yet I pushed you away when you came back for me
I would have died for you (But now that you're gone)
I should have died for you
I'm still dying for you
[Verse 2]
I will not let myself be subsumed
You're haunting every waking moment
This trauma bonds
This world denies my actualization
I will not believe that this is me
I don't even know if you're real
I cannot feel the same detail anymore
[Chorus]
You are my cross to bear (Cross to bear)
Yet I pushed you away when you came back for me
I would have died for you (But now that you're gone)
I should have died for you
I'm still dying for you
[Post-Chorus]
I could almost breathe
But you held me under
You held me
[Bridge]
For all of our sakes and our future selves
Despite what I said
I pray this is not the end
The end has come
[Chorus]
You are my cross to bear
Yet I pushed you away when you came back for me
And I would have died for you (But now that you're gone)
And I should have died for you
I'm still dying for you
[Outro]
But now that you're gone
My yearning has only grown