[Verse 1]
I'm afraid I'll always be like this
Unable to grow
Constant regression
It's inevitable
[Pre-Chorus]
You were the begging that fed me
I am the failure that feeds you
But the biggest mistake I could make
Was trusting the shithead that is me
[Chorus]
Choke me, choke me, engorge my organ
Sex and death, sex and death, what's the difference?
Bellow, bellow, bellow
Swallow, swallow, swallow
[Verse 2]
Get loud, get loud, make your father proud
I will lead you where you don't wanna go
[Pre-Breakdown]
Bloated and bursting with bile
Castration of my phallic rage
[Breakdown 1]
Denial breeds beauty
Denial breeds beauty
Denial breeds beauty
Denial bleeds me dry
[Bridge]
I'm afraid I'll always be like this (I'm afraid I'll always be like this)
Unable to grow and constantly regressing (Constantly regressing)
Numbing myself, I can feel it (I can feel it)
Inhibition letting go, only to wake up feeling alone
This was inevitable (This was inevitable)
I'm sorry I let you down (I'm sorry I let you down)
(I'm sorry I let you down)
But I'll be your martyr (But I'll be your martyr)
I'm sorry I let you down (I'm sorry I let you down)
(I'm sorry I let you down) I'm sorry I let you down
I am a dream of the endless
Self aware in a perpetual cycle that I cannot escape
A fool who prays for that which he is most afraid (Most afraid)
Giving my all, only to be told that is never good enough
Give me the strength to pull the trigger (Show me there is a light at the end)
(Regardless of what awaits) Show me there is a light at the end
(A void of emotion or the vast nothingness) Regardless of what awaits
(I know you will not be there) A void of emotion or the vast nothingness
I know you will not be there (I'm sorry I let you down)
And I know it will be beautiful
[Breakdown 2]
Merciless emptiness
Merciless emptiness
Merciless emptiness
Merciless emptiness
[Refrain]
I hope I make you embarrassed
I hope you're afraid
I know you'll keep me a secret
I hope you're ashamed
I hope I make you embarrassed
I hope you're afraid
I know you'll keep me a secret
I hope you're ashamed
[Outro]
I hope you hate me
I hope you always hate me
I hope you hate me
I hope you always hate me