I've accepted my defeat
I've made my bed but I refuse to sleep
I'm not happy, I never was
I never will be
I'll lower myself down while you all just stand around
Why are you all so fucking happy?
Let me be the punchline to your joke
Manic, psychotic, I think I've fucking lost it
I can't be helped, I'm in this hell
There's no fucking way that I'll be leaving
Maybe I'll slit my wrists just to feel something better than this