[Verse 1]
I um'd and ah'd for long enough
To hold my breath and take the jump
But nothing ever hurt enough to fix me
I flushed the blades and hid the knives
I tried to find the point of life
I wonder if I'll feel alive at fifty
[Pre-Chorus]
And I know, soon enough
You'll be leaving me
If you don't, I'll let go
Oh, so easily
[Chorus]
So used to feeling nothing
It's just the way that I've been
I see a good thing coming
And I'm going in for the kill
A fault in my construction
I think I'm missing something
Loving the rut I'm stuck in
It's just the way that I'm built
It's just the way that I'm built
[Verse 2]
I tried to find a brighter side
But it was just a waste of time
'Cause all the skeletons I hide, thеy miss me
So for the sake of my own pridе
I bottle up the tears I've cried
So I can bathe in my own misery
[Pre-Chorus]
'Cause I know, soon enough
You'll be gone again
When you go, tell myself
That's how I wanted it
[Chorus]
So used to feeling nothing
It's just the way that I've been
I see a good thing coming
And I'm going in for the kill
A fault in my construction
I think I'm missing something
Loving the rut I'm stuck in
It's just the way that I'm built
It's just the way that I'm built
[Bridge]
I got walls of steel but they're caving in
'Cause now you've shot holes in my ceiling
Like a wrecking ball hitting porcelain
I'm not ready for what I'm feeling
[Chorus]
So used to feeling nothing
It's just the way that I've been
I see a good thing coming
And I'm going in for the kill
A fault in my construction
I think I'm missing something
Loving the rut I'm stuck in
It's just the way that I'm built
[Outro]
(You shot holes up in my ceiling)
It's just the way that I'm built
(Are you fucking with my feeling?)
(And I'm going in for the kill)