[Intro]
Uh, yo, ayy
Yeah
[Verse 1]
I'm suicidal on my best days
And homicidal on my worst ones
My first love still my first gun
I feel my luck runnin' dry, still on my first run
Seen niggas trip over pride and spoil in the sun
Covered up to keep off the flies until the coroner comes
Like a plate of ribs
Must've thought that he was safer on base when he shoulda hid
Blood splatter, silly rabbit, these guns ain't for tricks
Better stick to the script
Hold the knife sideways so it don't stick to the ribs
I learned that as kid, so what you wan' do?
I'm who the young niggas look up to when they hurtin' for a buck
Down bad, screamin' fuck you
Whoever came with you, they can all get a slug too
This Colt 45 turn a nigga to bug juice
This Five-seveN fully spray just like bug spray
Got 'em all stuck together like the dreads on Gunplay
I'm John Wicks, nigga
Pop out with the stick, hit 'em like I'm Lucic, nigga
We the new rich niggas, y'all them same bitch niggas, boy, we been knew it
Everybody talk about it, I'm the one that been through it
Niggas actin' like they soldiers, never really gettin' to it
Only reason why I'm really rappin' 'cause I need the music
[Interlude]
Yeah, ayy
Yeah, ayy
[Chorus]
Yo, I'm suicidal on my best days
And homicidal on my worst ones
My first love still my first gun, uh
Yo, I'm suicidal on my best days
And homicidal on my worst ones
My first love still my first gun, yeah, ayy
[Verse 2]
Yo, I had to live with that shit that I did after I knew better
And sit with it, still, though, I do better
And though I do better, still don't seem to feel better
Breakin' down packs for the week like a meal prepper
The game hard like we playin' chess, but it's still checkers
You won't know who's who until they reveal weapons
I used to conceal questions, now it ain't a question
I feel it divine, destined, I stood through the time, tested and made it alive
Been tried three times and still willin'
The stone that the builder refused still in the buildin'
Workin' on that perfect ashler, ashin' blunts on the ceilin'
Talkin' 'bout choppin' stones, but I was choppin' stones really
Vac' and pack sealin' it, back-to-back dealin' it
Tried to fall back, my niggas was not feelin' it
So guess who still in it? Still got the the steel in it?
Still rob a nigga for real, nah, I'm not stealin'
Still post up on Steele 'cause I'm a real nigga
Still post up on Cook 'cause I done cooked niggas
[Interlude]
Yeah, ayy
[Chorus]
Yo, I'm suicidal on my best days
And homicidal on my worst ones
My first love still my first gun, ayy, yeah, yo
I'm suicidal on my best days
And homicidal on my worst ones
My first love still my first gun, uh
Yo, I'm suicidal on my best days
And homicidal on my worst ones
My first love still my first gun, ayy, yeah