[Verse 1]
I'm so worried that I've got this wrong
So I save face and lock myself away
But now I don't know what to tell my mom
When she's sad we haven't talked in days
I'm finally winning over friends I meet
But fear that love is one I'll never find
I'm finally at the start of everything
But why do I feel like I'm out of time?
[Chorus]
I'm just so tired of not being tired enough to sleep
Is this all there is to get from life?
Being wired to fan the fire
And want what I can't be
'Cause I'm gonna let me down sometimes
No, I know this can't be right
Is this being alive?
[Verse 2]
When I call you, there's no words to say
But you know that I can't handle quiet
Mute my brain and try to stay away
But it gets way louder in the silence
And no, I can't tell her that every song
Every song I wrote with her in mind
And am I scared that if she knew, she'd run
Or am I scared I'd have no words to write?
[Chorus]
I'm just so tired of not being tired enough to sleep
Is this all there is to get from life?
Being wired to fan the fire
And want what I can't be
Well, I'm gonna let me down sometimes
No, I know this can't be right
Is this being alive? Is this?
[Bridge]
If you can hear me when I call
If you can catch me when I fall
And I don't fall right through you
Why don't I feel alive? Why don't I feel alive?
Why don't I feel it?
If you can hear me when I call
If you can catch me when I fall
And I don't fall right through you
Why don't I feel alive? Why don't I feel alive?
Why don't I feel?