[Verse 1]
I’ve been building mental walls
Just to feel safe
I’m running out of excuses
That strange notion again
Scenarios, possibilities
Pushing me to the edge
It would be easier
If I could just turn off my brain
[Pre-Chorus]
You’re still faking conversations, inevitable
There are no new notifications, stop checking your phone
They want an explanation, I can’t stand it anymore
[Chorus]
I’m not asking to be someone’s priority
Emotionally unavailable for intimacy
Bad kind of butterflies, too scared to socialize
Generated by this codependency
Thеy say I’m always on the defensivе
But it’s not a crime, it’s not a crime (Ooh-ooh)
That’s how I’ve survived, I’ve survived (Ooh-ooh)
Desperately tryin’ not to overthink
They still don’t get it, don’t get it
[Verse 2]
And I still don’t know
Don't know what to expect
All the hours I spent
I never get what I deserve
Whispers, silhouettes
Pushing me to the edge
It would be easier
If I could just hide under my shell
[Pre-Chorus]
You’re still faking conversations, inevitable
There are no new notifications, stop checking your phone
They want an explanation, I can’t stand it anymore
[Chorus]
I’m not asking to be someone’s priority
Emotionally unavailable for intimacy
Bad kind of butterflies, too scared to socialize
Generated by this codependency
They say I’m always on the defensive
But it’s not a crime, it’s not a crime (Ooh-ooh)
That’s how I’ve survived, I’ve survived (Ooh-ooh)
It’s not a crime, it’s not a crime (Ooh-ooh)
That’s how I’ve survived, I’ve survived (Ooh-ooh)
They still don’t get it, don’t get it
They still don’t get it, don’t get it
[Outro]
I’ve been building mental walls
Just to feel safe, again