I've been living in self-defence
And it's making me weak
I'm denying my common sense
And I'm afraid to speak
Well, I've been living a lie
And I know that's the truth
And all these things I deny myself
I'll never have, so I can't lose
I've been living in self-defence
And it's so hard to start
I'm sacrificing my confidence
And I don't trust my heart
If I could just go back in time
I'd find out where I went wrong
Renew the love that took my will away
And make myself strong
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I've been living in self-defence
It's true, I'll confess
And I won't prove my innocent
Until I've proved myself
If I could just go back in time
I'd find out where I went wrong
Renew the love that took my will away
And make myself strong
Once again, if you were mine
I strip off this poor disguise
And live my life the way I used to do
And not tell such lies
I'd walk around with my head held high
And not tell such foolish lies