I don’t know
I’m not sure if I care
To be held accountable
For my mistakes
I’ve made a lot
And convince myself I’ve learned from them
But I still hate myself for making them at all m
God damn all my disorders
That being said
I gave you everything I could
I’m just a guest
And I guess that I am blessed
To invest in such a hideous mess
Sometimes at night
I close my eyes and kiss a pistol
A fistful of pills
And the demons I still fight
God damn all my disorders
And blown circuitry
The hollow shell of who I used to be
Let’s all blame our disorders
And heredity
For this numbing misery