[Intro]
Well, how do I feel about all this?
That's actually a good question
Because everything seems fine, everything has balanced out
But on the other hand, it’s like two out of ten
[Verse 1]
I’ll forget my keys again, I’ll forget half the words again
A fool never learns that a true enemy doesn't bare their fangs
Why did you take away everything I had?
And I’m starting again from scratch, collecting unfinished threads
I have piles of documents, unfinished texts somewhere
And I’m trying to cover up hundrеds of silly mistakes with a cloak of tears
I shouldn’t be crying, but crying is hard
And I’m starting again from scratch, collеcting unfinished threads
[Pre-Chorus]
And everyone tells me that I look better
That I look better as a blonde, again something about appearance
That I smile more, that I’m more present everywhere
That they still believe in me, though my eyes are fading
Hope for better, that something will support me
I have to say what I feel, so I feel
I feel better, though better is
Still plus minus somewhere around, oh, two out of ten
[Chorus]
Again, again I’m rowing to the shore and I hope
That this time the wind won't blow me somewhere else
A joke, the same joke over and over and I live in it
Someday I’ll remember what my name is
[Verse 2]
The state of things is, well, what can I say, it’s important that it is as it is
You know, I need to cool down, it doesn’t count, the gesture is too little
Why did I take it away, why did I fall for it
And if time could be turned back a few months, that would be cool
I have hundreds of imaginations of how it could be, how it might have
Gone differently, will God ever forgive me?
If you knew me as I know myself
Would you treat me the same or would you throw bottles at me?
[Pre-Chorus]
And everyone tells me that I’m overreacting a bit
That I need to step back, well, it’s a pity that I don’t know
Sometimes I’m glad that I’m still here
That I’m still alive, that I’m still present
And yes, I deserve all the successes
All the promotions, all those things
And I deserve what I feel, and I feel
I feel like two out of ten
[Chorus]
Again, again I’m rowing to the shore and I hope
That this time the wind won't blow me somewhere else
A joke, the same joke over and over and I live in it
Someday I’ll remember what my name is
Again, again I’m rowing to the shore and I hope
That this time the wind won't blow me somewhere else
A joke, the same joke over and over and I live in it
Someday I’ll remember what my name is
[Bridge]
What’s my name, again I’m rowing to the shore
What’s my name, again to the shore
What’s my name, again to the shore
What’s my name
[Outro]
Here, I’m giving you a sign, a sign that something is wrong
Why do I feel so dirty, why has it become so hard?
The fact is, we made a pact, we didn’t foresee the losses
Why do I feel so dirty, why has it become so hard?