Without leaving beloved traces
Without even happiness unstagnatingly sent
Flipping over the left-behind toy box
Again I put on a false smile until the end
Counterfeit, heavy breathing
As though a baby toy, my heart's scars were controlled
On the back that is leaving, incessantly falling rain
Lying as though breathing
Even stealing sanity
Blurred black hatred
The time to let it go
Look as I put my hand to a dangerous toy
Bore into my ugly body!
Body shaken by emotion that cannot be given voice
Pound at thе site of complete rot and dеcay!
From the blade that shreds me
With oppressively, deeply penetrating words
What I saw from the crack was the world only of adults
Dirty and sultry, the treasury of trauma
Built in the closet, a world to myself
A land of hope and beautifully pure dreams
They were warped, my brain cells
The opened recesses of my heart
Open wounds rising to the surface
And the key of resurrecting memories
A single phrase
"Become no more"
Interrupting the Sun on a whim
The boy of shadow who devours hope
Becomes my friend
Eternal darkness
Zero guilt
Fun toys
Adult toys
Living toys
Usable toys
Fun toys
Adult toys
Living toys
I'm kind of sad~
Look! I put my hand to dangerous toys
Penetrate the ugly memories!
Completely hating it, what I was clinging to
The time has come to shed the filth
No one will understand at all
A millimeter-sized trap only understood by me
Even so tiny as to not be seen by the eye
With oppressively, deeply penetrating
Words
(Alt. Title(s): Otona no Omocha)