[Verse 1]
I was an anxious child
Only-child
A guy that didn’t want to play soccer, for I was a ballet dancer
Always lost in the world, I never had a sense of place
And my father was never there
I knew the gifts were there when I saw his car pull in
And what really happened on the first day of school is just guesswork
But I saw my neighborhood friend go against the headmaster with a chain
And that was
[Pre-Chorus]
That was when I became scared of the world, and everything it had to accommodate
Everyone seems so dumb, I answered the voice in my head
Hid myself in my room
I had a 50-kilo rottweiler mom called Diva
Who we ended up taking the life of
I made friends that were human beings
Bumping triple-6 and several hoodie sizes up
That was when I started liking boundaries
Don’t lose sight of me, because the hawk is coming
[Chorus]
Tired of walking back in my tracks
There were some things I lost on the way, don’t know where, or what
Where my grandparents live
I am never anyones cousin or brother
Then I dared to look behind, I saw shadows
Tried to put them on a leash, but they backed away
Gave me goosebumps on the stomach, realized that everything I believed was wrong
Nothing stays the same, but it’s the same for me
[Verse 2]
Sat completely quiet until midnight and pretended like we didn’t do anything
Because that’s when Nickelodeon turned into porno
All kings face a relapse
Youth clubs, bottles with strange potions and black metal
Suicide and premature e-word
I was chill with them, but couldn’t say what I wanted with words
Wrote down things and hide them in the bathroom drawer
We did burglaries in cars and split the weed in two, ah
I liked logo-things and Burberry
The guys just: “Grandmothers curtains”
They think I was a geek, honestly wasn’t so bad
But packed down everything in the shed and cried about it several hours
Day and night
Then Eirik and I got a treehouse
I was just glad we got shade for the screen of our Gameboy
A world of fantasies, but the adult’s fantasies and cannulas got in the way
And that was
[Pre-Chorus]
When I became afraid of the world, and everything it must accommodate
Everything seemed so dumb, I answered the voices in my head while my eyelids grew heavy
I had a 50-kilo rottweiler mom called Diva
Who we ended up taking the life of
And I made friends from the block
Summer vacations without ever looking at the clock
That was when time should’ve stopped
[Chorus] x 2
Tired of walking back in my tracks
There were some things I lost on the way, don’t know where, or what
Where my grandparents live
I am never anyones cousin or brother
Then I dared to look behind, I saw shadows
Tried to put them on a leash, but they backed away
Gave me goosebumps on the stomach, realized that everything I believed was wrong
Nothing stays the same, but it’s the same for me