(The fake, after all the strenuous efforts, will be authentic.)
Watching the face of you, senpai, who’s talking so clearly
I, nothing but ordinary, fell in a most ardent love
I’m cutting off my long hair
I solidify even my personality with lies
So that I can become like you
Alas, I’m diminishing myself! I scrape and slice myself off
Since I am a mere pebble
In order to shine, by squeezing myself into a pattern
I have to put on airs. I have to play a role
I have to be like you, senpai
Because I know more than anyone else that I’m worthless
You graduated and departed, while I remained here
People started to look up to me, and I became their idol
That was really happy;
I felt that I got a little closer to my dream—
Did I come near to you?
Alas, I’m making myself up. I’m deceiving you
I’m clad in you, and the curtain opens
Because that is my one and only value
I paste your smile, which I fell in love with that day, on my natural face—
Silently on my natural face which forgot how to smile
I throw up in front of a mirror. I have tears in my eyes
I feel nauseous, throw up, and cry aloud, unable to find out why
What did I end up losing in return for all the aspirations I’ve got?
Alas, I’m breaking down. I’m falling apart
And I’m even covering it up so skillfully
I cannot go back to being myself now, after all
I’m fitting in this pattern. I’m growing farther
Everyone’s going to forget me
But, if I could be “I” (you) with this, that would be fine
(Alt. Title(s): Commonplace Replicant)