Shall I play a soliloquy from the bottom of my heart
From within a narrow cage at eighteen degrees below freezing
Do you remember? That day, that time
The lie called kindness, unforgettable hatred
Your lullaby was nothing but your ego, a rough pretense
Echoing in the depths of my brain
Turning into clumsy noise
It became an unhealing curse
As if it were strangling me
Painful (present, corpse) and agonizing (strong, repeatedly willful)
Without even a moment to struggle
Stop the clock's hands, a dеsperate double suicidе
My shouting voice and hands don't reach
I drown in a dream within a bittersweet dream
Was I a cold sleeper?
My body and heart grow numb, in the midst of it
Drifting through a sea of muddled consciousness
For some reason, I remember you
Ironically, I still wished to live
Things like that were long abandoned
Wandering through the frozen corners of memory
When I finally arrived, it was in the far reaches of oblivion
Unluckily, I had no choice but to give up
Why do you call that salvation?
For what purpose did I walk this far?
For whose sake?
In the end, I remembered my true feelings
They were the reverse of hatred
The emotions I failed to convey were 'I' and 'you'
Even regret has solidified
Just like this
In the deep darkness, I just want to dream of answers
No one knows what tomorrow holds
When will I see you next, in days or years?
Until that day, I close my eyes
Goodbye to the loneliness that can't even say goodnight
Farewell!