I can't think of the last time I thought
That everything was alright
It's useless to try
I've spent two hours crying and I'm still here
Seeing myself smiling in pictures
Why can't I figure out when I stopped feeling anything?
And I know, it's no one's fault, but it's not mine either
And I don't want to be here anymore
I don't want to be here
I swear that I'm trying
To do more than the bare minimum
I want to hide in my room
To stop pretending to be strong
I swear that I'm trying
To see things differently
But the chaos I see around me
Blinds me to what lies before me
How hard that is to believe
Seeing myself smiling in pictures
Why can't I figure out when I stopped feeling anything? oh
I know it's no one's fault, but it's not mine either
And I don't want to be like this anymore
I don't want to
I don't want to
I swear that I'm trying
To do more than the bare minimum
I want to hide in my room
To stop pretending to be strong
I swear that I'm trying
To see things differently
But the chaos I see around me
I'm clouded to what's in front of me
How hard it is to thrive
I love you, my love
What a spectacular thing
Can you sing another?