[Lyrics of "DUBBI"]
[Verse 1]
Nothing exceptional my story
My parents were not doctors nor thieves
Where I come from, you know, that was enough
Real stars for us were the criminals
No dialogue at the table, I don't blame them
Occasional job, eviction and two kids to support
And saying that is bad, it's like we don't even know each other
What they used to dream I can't imagine
Now she is my shrink, she says that normality terrifies me
That it has nothing to do with family at all?
Years ago I'd have laughed my ass off
I don't fear death, but I fear not living
(Of not living? Likе your parents? Do you think that?)
(Do you think you are living now that you are succеssful?)
I've played my cards
The struggle for life is cruel but fascinating
I've made it an art, I've been a part of it
Marracash has an older brother by his side
One who digs into reality, the escape from a heavy reality
Trying to make money during that
Despite the bad years and all the risks taken
Watching those big problems becoming huge
The bad ones became good memories
The too horrible ones I have removed them
[Chorus 1]
And the doubts, doubts, doubts remained
Hammering doubts, doubts, doubts, doubts
Doubts, doubts, doubts
Hammering doubts, doubts, doubts, doubts
[Verse 2]
Years ago, yes, I used to do blow, now it's rare
Joints I'm still a slave, cigarettes in decline
I mainly have troubles with sleep
Without pills I haven't slept in a long time
"How long?" he asks me, more than four years, don't look at me wrong
I know the package leaflet said: "Max four weeks"
I've got weird swings and I don't know what causes them
The mind lies, it finds new ways to trick me
(Your brother has two beautiful children, when will you make up your mind?)
Love? The love you mentioned
Holding something tight until it is suffocated?
A game in which I hurt myself or hurt another girl
I'm in my forties and I have never seen a bond that remains
A motherly love, viscous, I don't need it, I don't want it
For me it's just a way to hide from the world
(Your brother has two beautiful children, you'll never have them)
(No one's waiting for you, they dont't give a fuck about you)
Even this, all of this
Did I really want this? All my life I've been thinking about it
Maybe I don't believe in the product I sell anymore
What a paradox, isn't it? That to be me
I'm forced to go where I don't recognize myself
There must be something else besides the pomp for the effort
Here from above I think I have sacrificed too much
I love chaos, I hate everything being under control
I don't like that making a lot of cash
Make me a rich man who can't tie his shoes anymore
It's obvious, it's happening right now
Smile, my conflict goes right into your pocket
(Drop everything and don't complain in the song)
Maybe making music is the only solution
Maybe there's no hole that can contain your pain
Maybe there's no escape that leads to evasion
Maybe I was fine among losers and idealists
Maybe mental health is something for the wealthy
Maybe to move on you don't have to listen to yourself
How do the others get by? I see them so convinced
[Chorus 2]
And without doubts, doubts, doubts
All without doubts, doubts, doubts
All, all, all
All without doubt, doubt, doubt, doubt
[Outro]
Yeah, I'll take you on a trip just you and me (Uh-ah-uh)
But if we go private, I don't mean the jet
There's no destination
And I don't know if we'll get there (And where?)
There's no destination
In the blue