I can’t sleep until I’ve erased all of my memory up until today
It’s unbearable, how much I wish for a substitute to live my life for me from tomorrow on
Let me say that everything’ll be okay. And then, won’t you let me blame it all on you later?
Since everything’s meaningless now, won’t you let me blame it all on you later?
I can’t make any sense, can’t do anything
About the promises I can’t fulfill, at the expense of letting my brain be taken over
By each and every single of the words that are flooding my mind
I can’t see. I want to flee. I want to jump. I want to quit. I can’t avoid it
That’s why
Just let me sink, let me sink
Until I can’t crawl up anymore
Until you’re sick of it
Just drop me, drop me
Until you dangle salvation before me
I crush to bits the drops tasting of lies, altogether with the screams blocked out of my throat
Having a hard time keeping a smile, I’m just whiling away my time as I go along with this know-it-all pretense
I didn’t want to turn out like this
Today, I’m holding on to my sleepy, sleepy ideal of becoming useful for once, while waiting to be saved
For the first one, say it with my mouth stretched to the ears
Biting my lips with all the strength I find in me
Just die, just do it
Without a care for the future or past
If I hate it
Just destroy everything, destroy everything
Might as well just turn into a perpetrator
Just sing the next one already, before I have to spit out
This flavorless irritation that’s more than I can eat and sadness from which nothing ever comes
I might as well
Just dance the dance
Let it ring out, before I completely turn an ashen color
Just change, just change
Until I can fall asleep
I might as well
Just snatch it away, snatch it away
Exposing all the lies I’ve tamed
I’ve been looking at a false image that flitted through my feverish mind
I’ve been looking at my own self