You'll breathe on, even if you just live just doing whatever works
Living depending on someone else;
Even if your support disappears, you’ll continue to breathe
Becoming dependent on the the next thing
My throwaway connections
And relationships that only exist at the right time and the right place
Even if I try to lament, saying "something's not quite right"
I remain understanding nothing {apparently}
Whatever anyone might say
I'll always bе like this
I cast down my eyes
Bеside all of my severed bonds
{Apparently} even if I’m so lonely I cry
No one gives a damn
And yet again, deathly loneliness attacks
For every person whose feelings I treat with disdain
I live relying on an another
The punishment for curling up all those times
Tightens around my chest and digs in its fangs
Before I even realised “loneliness” began to turn
My heart alone notices and yearns for another
Amidst the pin and needle-like pain,
I sunk in the powerlessness of “being alone”
{apparently} whatever I say to someone
There's no turning back
Even from the things I relinquished
With a “what a pain”
{Apparently} however many times I cry
It's not going to reach (anyone)
Cracks run their way through my heart
So it wouldn't break
So I wouldn't break it
Even though with my inexperienced hands, I so tried to protect it
I ended up straining myself
And crushing {it}
Over the most trivial of emotions, didn't I...
{Apparently}, even if I hug my knees and cry
There will be no change
Not even to my sobs
That echo in this quiet room
Even if the night swallows it
Even if the moon shines down upon it
It won't disappear, it doesn't disappear
Only looking at the truth, that won’t disappear
It won’t heal, I can't say it
Against the voice I hid, against me
Deathly loneliness attacks
(Alt. Title(s): Deathly Loneliness Attacks)