[Intro]
Even if it means tearing my mouth apart
I want to tell you everything
And I'm fed up with myself for wanting to do that
I don't want to change
I don't mind being a coward
I keep piling on lies, and my skin has grown thick
[Verse 1]
Is this an initial setting, a defect, or should it be called a change? Sometimes I think about diving into your heart
It's not that I want to hear your heartbeat or crave your warmth
I realized I want to peek into the depths of your heart
[Pre-Chorus]
You are coloring the monochrome daily life and it's beautiful
But it was scary, I can't say what it was though
[Chorus]
How should I have done it, how should I have done it
How should I have done it, how should I have done it?
Even if I hit the program of emotions
I don't understand, I don't understand
I don't understand, I don't understand, but it's you
"I reached out," it drifted away, drifted away, drifted away
It's a big misunderstanding
If I could just carve it out, it would be easy
I'm done, I'm done, I'm done
I hate this kind of thing
I don't need anything
[Verse 2]
Determining what to keep and what to discard
Should be part of an easily patternized process
We weigh them on a scale
Just being heavy doesn't mean anything
We choose based on the mass of the "feelings" attached to them
[Pre-Chorus]
You carried the lead-colored memories, chasing after them endlessly
Wondering what they meant, so that you could finally say
"Let's go home"
[Chorus]
How should I have done it, how should I have done it
How should I have done it, how should I have done it?
I don't understand your raison d'être or how to support you
I don't understand, I don't understand
I don't understand, but I don't want you to sink
After I "took your hand"
[Interlude]
(Ha, ha)
(Ha, ha)
[Bridge]
It's probably just my imagination, but my heart skipped a beat
I won't let my guard down
I'm so empty that I forget even the nights that wet my knees
That should have been fine, right?
[Chorus]
How should I have done it, how should I have done it
How should I have done it, how should I have done it?
How should I have done it, how should I have done it
How should I have done it, how should I have done it?
Even if I hit the program of emotions
I don't understand, I don't understand
I don't understand, I don't understand, but it's you
"I pulled you closer" but it was me who pushed you away
I blamed everything on you, never again
So I wouldn't have to dream, I really understood
I understood and covered it up with ambiguity
Because I can't lose you